Trust.
I see that I have been trusting others when they first come into my life. There are some that I trust immediately and some that I do not trust at all. Those that I trust immediately are those that I am able to connect with via communication where if we have the same interests, behaviors, and/or personalities, I see myself in them and thus place my trust in them. Those that I do not trust immediately are those that I am not able to connect with via communication where I do not see that we have the same interests, behaviors, and/or personalities.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust others who have not yet shown nor proven to me who they are and what they stand for. I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that what I am seeing of a person that I have just met is that person reflecting back to me what they see as themselves in me - this is not who they really are. Despite the fact that over-and-over-again, others interests, behaviors, and/or personalities have 'miraculously and suddenly changed' from who and what I thought these people were, I did not allow nor want myself to see that this interest/behavior/personality change follows a pattern and thus should have been predictable. I commit myself to stop trusting others until they have shown and proven over an extensive amount of time, that they are who/what they are and who/what they are does not change.
I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see that the reason that I have trusted others and not wanted to see the pattern is that I WANT to trust others. In spite of the fact that there has never been a human in this world that I have been able to maintain trust with, I still continue to look for someone to trust. And trust, demonstrated in this way is not real because even though I want to trust another, I am looking for reasons NOT to trust them during the entirety of our relationship. So, within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get caught up in a polarity trap of trust where I drive myself to find another that I can trust while at the same time, I collect reasons why I cannot trust another so that I am not able, in fact, to trust another. I commit myself to remove myself from the 'I-Want-This-But-I-Fear-This' Polarity Trap. When and as I see myself within the 'I-Want-This-But-I-Fear-This' Polarity Trap, I stop. I realize that fear is not real - fear is created by me and for me and thus is me. I commit myself to self-forgiving my fears and becoming equal and one with my fears.
Within this, I forgive myself that I haven't accepted or allowed myself to see that my need, want, and desire to trust another is need, want, and desire to trust myself. I fear myself and thus distrust myself. I commit myself to remove my fear of myself as my fears as a step toward establishing trust with myself.
I see that I have been trusting others when they first come into my life. There are some that I trust immediately and some that I do not trust at all. Those that I trust immediately are those that I am able to connect with via communication where if we have the same interests, behaviors, and/or personalities, I see myself in them and thus place my trust in them. Those that I do not trust immediately are those that I am not able to connect with via communication where I do not see that we have the same interests, behaviors, and/or personalities.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust others who have not yet shown nor proven to me who they are and what they stand for. I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that what I am seeing of a person that I have just met is that person reflecting back to me what they see as themselves in me - this is not who they really are. Despite the fact that over-and-over-again, others interests, behaviors, and/or personalities have 'miraculously and suddenly changed' from who and what I thought these people were, I did not allow nor want myself to see that this interest/behavior/personality change follows a pattern and thus should have been predictable. I commit myself to stop trusting others until they have shown and proven over an extensive amount of time, that they are who/what they are and who/what they are does not change.
I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see that the reason that I have trusted others and not wanted to see the pattern is that I WANT to trust others. In spite of the fact that there has never been a human in this world that I have been able to maintain trust with, I still continue to look for someone to trust. And trust, demonstrated in this way is not real because even though I want to trust another, I am looking for reasons NOT to trust them during the entirety of our relationship. So, within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get caught up in a polarity trap of trust where I drive myself to find another that I can trust while at the same time, I collect reasons why I cannot trust another so that I am not able, in fact, to trust another. I commit myself to remove myself from the 'I-Want-This-But-I-Fear-This' Polarity Trap. When and as I see myself within the 'I-Want-This-But-I-Fear-This' Polarity Trap, I stop. I realize that fear is not real - fear is created by me and for me and thus is me. I commit myself to self-forgiving my fears and becoming equal and one with my fears.
Within this, I forgive myself that I haven't accepted or allowed myself to see that my need, want, and desire to trust another is need, want, and desire to trust myself. I fear myself and thus distrust myself. I commit myself to remove my fear of myself as my fears as a step toward establishing trust with myself.
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