Friday, May 30, 2014

Day 183: The Desteni of Living - My Declaration of Principle

From here, I commit myself to live the following principles:

1. Realizing and living my utmost potential

2. Living by the principle of what is best for all – guiding me in thought, word and deed to
always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all

3. Living by the principle of self honesty – to ensure I am pure in thought, word and deed: that
my within and without is equal and one. Who I am within is who I am without and vice-versa

4. Self Purification through Writing, Self Forgiveness and Self Application – the action of
realizing I am responsible for my own thoughts, words and deeds, to forgive myself for
transgressions and change myself to ensure I take responsibility for who, what and how I am
and through this know that I can trust myself to always be honest with me and so others

5. Living the principle of Self Responsibility – realizing only I am responsible for what I
accept and allow inside of me, my relationships and my outside world and so with this
responsibility: only I have the power and ability to change that which I see is compromising
who I am, what I live and how this affects others

6. Realizing that who I am in thought, word and deed affects not only myself – but others as
well and so with Self Responsibility in thought, word and deed – I take responsibility for
myself and so my relationships to be Self Aware in every moment and live in such a way that
is best for me and so others as well

7. Living the Principle of Self Awareness – to be aware, to see, to recognize my own thoughts
and Mind, to be self honest to the extent where I can take responsibility for when I see
my thoughts / Mind is not what is best for me / others and commit to immediately take
responsibility and change for myself and so for others

8. With taking responsibility for myself, becoming aware of myself – take responsibility
and become aware of others in my life, to assist and support them as I am assisting and
supporting myself – to give as you would like to receive and do the extra bit every day to see
where I can contribute to other’s lives and so my own

9. Living the principle of self trust – as I commit myself to remain constant in my living of self
honesty, self responsibility and self awareness, I stand as an unbending trust that I always
in all ways know who I am no matter what I face and that in this I know, as proven in the
constancy of my living that I will always honour and stand by what is best for all and so best
for me

10. Making Love Visible – through me not accepting/allowing anything less than my utmost
potential, I support those in my life to reach their utmost potential, to love them as I have
shown love to myself by gifting to me my utmost potential, the best life/living experience
and show others as I have shown myself what is means to LIVE

11. No one can save you, save yourself – the realization that the tools and principles of Desteni
is the guide, but I must walk the path myself. We are here to assist and support each other
in this process from Consciousness to Awareness/LIFE and what it means to live – but the
process itself, where you are alone with yourself in your own Mind: is walked alone

12. Not waiting for anything or anyone to take responsibility for me and this world – but that I
realize I have created who and how I am in this moment, therefore I have the responsibility
to change who and how I am and so the realization that we as a collective created how and
what this world is today and so it is the responsibility of the collective to change how and
what this world is today

13. Honoring the life in each person, animal – everything from the great to the small of earth,
that we expand our awareness and responsibility to creating the best possible life for
everyone and everything and so ourselves

14. Relationships as Agreements: individuals coming together using agreements as a platform
to one-on-one expand, grow and develop as individuals in life and living to support/assist
each other unconditionally to reach their utmost potential where the agreement is a coming
together of individuals understanding what it means to stand as equals and to stand as one

15. Sex as Self Expression – where sex is an united expression between individuals in honor,
respect, consideration and regard of each other as equals, two physical bodies uniting in
equality and oneness – a merging of two equals as one physically.

16. Realizing that by the virtue of me being in this world – my responsibility does not only
extend to my own Mind / my own Life, but to the minds and lives of everything and
everyone of this earth and so my commitment is to extend this awareness to all of humanity
to work together and live together to make this world heaven on earth for ourselves and the
generations to come

17. I must in my thoughts, words and deeds – but most importantly in my living actions, become
a living example for others in my world that is noticeable and visible when it comes to the
potential of a person to change themselves and so change their world. So that more people
can realize how we can change this world, by standing united in our self change within the
principle of what is best for all to bring heaven to earth

18. I am the change I want to see in me and my world – to bring heaven to earth is to bring into
being, into living the LIVING PROOF of a PRACTICAL HEAVEN that can be seen and heard in
our actions and words. We are the Living Heaven that must come into creation in this living

19. Through purifying my thoughts, words and deeds – my inner becomes my outer, so I bring
into creation me as heaven into earth, realizing it is not enough to ‘see the change / be the
change’ – for change to become REAL it must be a constant, consistent living of me through
the words I speak and the actions I live visible and noticeable to all in every moment of

20. Realizing that my physical body is my temple – my physical body is the living flesh through
which and in which I will bring into being and create / manifest heaven on earth as me in my
thoughts, words and deeds and so I honor, respect and regard – nurture and support my
physical body as I would nurture and support me as equals: my body is me

21. We are the change in ourselves and this world we have been waiting for: and so I commit
to dedicate myself and my life for each one as all to realize this, as nothing will change if we
don’t change in all that we are, within and without

22. The realization that for me to be able to change myself in thought, word and deed to the
most effective living being that I can be and become – I first have to ‘know thyself’ and so
commit myself to investigate, introspect and understand how I became who I am today,
to prepare the road before me into self creation of a responsible, aware, self honest and
trustworthy person for myself and so for all

23. The realization that for me to be able to contribute to change in this world – I have to get
to ‘know thyself’ as this world and so commit myself to research, investigate and introspect
the inner and outer workings of this world and align the systems of today to present and
give the best possible life for all on Earth

Day 182: Impatience


I notice that I am being impatient with myself and attempting to project that impatience onto others where I imagine that others see me as dumb, behind, exasperating. From here, I say to myself 'so-and-so must be losing patience with me' and the I imagine them rolling their eyes, sighing, and shaking their head.

I do the very same thing - all the time. Rolling my eyes, shaking my head, and sighing. All displays of disapproval. And I am aware that I'm doing it. So, essentially, what I'm looking at here is self-disapproval where I am I unsatisfied with myself and I experience being trapped in that - like, there's no way out of it for me - like, it's actually physically impossible for me to improve my intelligence or my falling behind and/or not being up to par.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be impatient with myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attempt to place/project my impatience with myself onto others as something others are experiencing instead of seeing that it's in-fact me experiencing the impatience, not bringing the point back to self, and not allowing myself to see a point that I can take responsibility for.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as dumb, slow-minded/slow-moving and exasperating and from that experience the negative emotion of being sad and 'sorry' for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as dumb, slow-minded/slow moving and exasperating - I am being WAY too harsh with myself - I am bullying myself and using abusive words against myself that are unnecessary and serve no purpose other than to diminish myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the thought of others sighing, rolling their eyes and shaking their head to exist within and as me. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the physical action of me sighing, shaking my head, and rolling my eyes as a show of impatience, disapproval and/or exasperation to exist within and as me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disapprove of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get caught up being unsatisfied with myself - and within this believing that I can never be anything else/more/better because of my genetics, my upbringing, my experiences and my education.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be trapped within all of these accumulated negative emotions that are triggered by the belief/imagination/fantasy/assumption of someone outside of me is probably being impatient with me and within this sees me as dumb, slow-minded, slow-moving, not up to par, and/or falling behind the game.  And within this, I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to STAND within the storm of emotions, breath, and release myself from my reactions, my emotions, and my mind-control with self-forgiveness.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, on a beingness level, shift, collapse, and/or hide in fear from my emotions because I do not like what I am seeing, I do not want to own up to what I'm seeing, and I do not want to take responsibility for what I am seeing.  And I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be/become and/or play the victim in the relationship that I have with my mind where, when I go into victimization, I curl up in a little ball - not stand, I turn myself away - not see, and I go into my Ego bubble of 'safe' imaginations and fantasies - not aware. 
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see how I allow self-victimization because it benefits me - where I use myself as the victim as an excuse and give myself the permission to not take responsibility for myself.  So, in relation to experiencing impatience with myself, I use the underlying negative emotional, thinking, and imaginary layers of being dumb, being slow-minded, being slow-moving, being exasperated, being sad, and disapproval to deliberately not stand, not face myself as my mind, allow fears to exist within and as me, and not take responsibility for me creation of myself.  
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to channel such an extensive amount of energy into maintaining my impatience and my self as a victim rather than defining what it means and what it will take for me to be PATIENT as a living word, and within this, stopping my pattern and the amount of energy required to keep my self-dishonest pattern going.