I often go into
Hope when I experience being overwhelmed with the negative events in
my life where I Hope that ‘things will get better’. When I am
Hoping, I am not the directive principle and instead I’m waiting
for something positive to happen – I deliberately attempt to ignore
the overwhelming negative events, tell myself that ‘there’s
nothing I can do to change it at this moment’, distract myself with
other tasks, and forget about the problem for a little while before
the thoughts, fears, and emotions that I have attached to the
negative events reemerge. On occasions something ‘happens’ to
improve my situation where my life looks quite miraculous because I
haven’t actually moved myself to assist with this improvement -
It’s these miraculous and positive experiences with events in my
life ‘suddenly getting better’ that I have used to keep myself
locked into Hope, to not take responsibility for my living, and to
not do the make decisions, do the work, and make the changes required
for my situation to improve. I realize that I can no longer Hope
that my situation and the events in my reality will change for the
better and that what is actually required is for me to make decisions
and move myself within these decisions for anything with in my
reality, including myself, to in-fact change.
SELF-FORGIVENESS
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to go into Hope when and as I experience being
overwhelmed with what I see as negative events in my reality.
Instead of standing up, taking responsibility for myself and my
reality, and moving myself to make decisions and changes, I attempt
to ignore the situations and distract myself with other tasks and
entertainment while I hope and wait for the situations in my reality
to ‘work themselves out’ positively.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to not be the direct guiding principle of myself
where instead of going into solutions, I overwhelm myself with
problems until I separate and abdicate myself from the problems by saying, “there’s
nothing I can do to change this at the moment,” and then give
myself over to Hope where I wait for a positive change to happen.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to deliberately attempt to ignore problems and/or
overwhelming events, distract myself with other tasks, and ‘forget’
about the problem until the thoughts, fears, and emotions that I have
attached to the negative events reemerge. I have convinced myself
that ‘things will work out on their own if I leave them alone’,
in-spite of the fact that I see that things just don’t ‘work out
on their own’ and that problems require for someone or something to
actually physically move and/or be a force for problems to work out.
I do not allow myself to be that movement and force and I instead
allow others to do this for me because I believe myself to be limited
with what I can do and that things will work out better if
someone/something more capable than me handles the problem.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to not move myself to assist and support myself to
make changes, improvements, and/or preventative actions within my
reality because, on occasion, I experience my life ‘suddenly
getting better’ with no action, change, nor movement on my part –
and I like this and experience a positive energetic feeling of a
miracle, a blessing, Good Karma, and/or that someone/something ‘out
there’ separate from me with Universe Powers must Love me. I hold
onto these moments and Hope that they will continue to play-out so
that I do not have to apply myself, take responsibility for my
living, make decisions, nor make the changes required for my living
situation to improve. Here, I have locked myself into Hope and
become possessed with/by Hope and within this, I have limited myself
from realizing my potential – all because I fear losing this
glimmer of a potential positive experience.
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