Thursday, December 3, 2015

Day 220: Betrayed - One Gift

One of the coolest things I've seen in myself within this all is how Resourceful I am.  As I have walked my relationship with another and not gotten what I saw that I needed, I would find ways to give what I want or need to myself.  So, as I expressed what I wanted or needed and my partner was not able to give, I found creative ways to be satisfied with myself.  If I was wanting to be physical, I would work out . If I wanted to communicate with others, I would find people to communicate.  If I wanted to go out and do things with others, I would make friends. With time, I was able to give myself almost everything. In a way, I see it as a challenge or something new that has yet to be discovered, like, "I want this. I need this. How can I go about getting this? Just how creative can I get here?"

So, when the point came up of walking a betrayal situation and deciding that enough is enough, I was fully equipped.  Because I had given myself so much already, the transition was very quick and smooth.  In my previous blogs, I have gone into how my life fell apart - and even though there was a part of me that was in fear of the change and the unknown, there was more of me that was stable, solid, and automatically aware of what needed to be done and finding creative ways to do it.  For the things that I didn't know how to deal with - the stuff that was coming up in my mind, the overwhelming emotions, and the intense shock of the situation, I had support.  For anyone - no matter what situation you are facing - see, you do not have to do this alone. There are people here that can very effectively assist you.

 My message here is: When, if, or as you find that you are not satisfied with your situation, look for an test out ways of giving yourself that satisfaction.  Be creative. Enjoy the process. Make it a game if you will.  I mean, in the end, when it comes down to it, our lives can change in any given moment ... we can in-fact lose everything outside of ourselves and be left with only ourselves.  Doesn't it make sense to start doing and giving things for oneself now? The more we do things, the more automatic they become. Prepare yourself.

1 comment:

  1. Very cool Carrie! Resourcefulness is the word that comes up when reading your words, thanks for the example!