Commitment
Self-Allocation
When others ask for me to make a
commitment to a project, a cause, a living creature, a thing, and/or
another being, my immediate reaction is resistance – I will think
and/or communicate the reasons that I cannot make a commitment. When
others inquire about my maintaining a commitment that I have allowed
myself to become distracted from, I become defensive – I harden or
soften my body and my voice and I communicate my justifications and
blames for not maintaining a promise that I had made with the words,
“I’m TRYING”, “I am too BUSY for that”, “I have a hard
enough time keeping up with what I’ve already got going on”, “Get
off of my back” and/or “You’re expecting WAAAAY too much from
me.” As I speak these words, I will either do so in a
forceful/aggressive or in a tired/pitiful/shameful physical
expression.
Dictionary Definitions of Commitment
commitment
[kəˈmɪtmənt]
n
1. the act of committing or
pledging
2. the state of being committed
or pledged
3. an obligation, promise, etc.
that restricts one's freedom of action
4. (Law / Parliamentary
Procedure) the referral of a bill to a committee or legislature
5. (Law) Also called (esp
formerly) mittimus Law a written order of a court
directing that a person be imprisoned
6. the official consignment of a
person to a mental hospital or prison
7. commission or perpetration,
esp of a crime
8. (Economics, Accounting &
Finance / Stock Exchange) a future financial obligation or contingent
liability Also called (esp for senses 5, 6) committal
[kəˈmɪtəl]
Within this dictionary definition I see
polarity where the act of pledging is positive and
obligation, promising, laws/threat of imprisonment, hospitalization,
and liability are negative.
Sounding
co-mit-ment || comm-it-ment ||
c-omit-ment || come-it-ment ||
com-mi-men (without 't') ||
kah-mit-ment || calm-mit-ment || calm-it-men
co-mit-ment = together; joint;
jointly; mutually. To the same extent or degree.
co-mit-ment = combining form;
thread; mitosis. Mit'a (Quechua) was mandatory public service
in the society of the Inca Empire. Historians use the hispanicized
term mita to distinguish the system as it was modified by the
Spanish, under whom it became a form of legal servitude which in
practice bordered on slavery.
co-mit-ment = The action and/or
result of a combined mutual agreement to perform a service.
comm-it-ment = The 'comm'
command in the Unix family of computer operating systems is a utility
that is used to compare two files for common and distinct lines.
(Comms) Abbreviation – communications headphones with microphones
wired via a power supply and individual belt packs - Also known as
cans. Communications, verbal or electronic, as in get comms with
[call-sign].
comm-it-ment = Pronoun: Used to
refer to a thing previously mentioned or easily identified. Referring
to an animal or child of unspecified sex.
comm-it-ment = The action and/or
result of separating and comparing previously mentioned, easily
identifiable, or the unspecified sex of an animal or a child for the
purpose of communication.
c-omit-ment = To fail to include
or mention; leave out. To pass over; neglect. To desist or fail in
doing; forbear. Leave undone.
c-omit-ment = See the action and/or
result of neglection, failure, and non-completion.
co-omit-ment = The action and/or
result of a combined mutual agreement to fail, neglect, and not
complete.
come-it-ment = To advance toward
the speaker or toward a specified place; approach. To advance in a
specified manner. To fare. To reach a particular point in a series
or as a result of orderly progression. To arrive, as in due course.
To move into view; appear. To occur in time; take place. To arrive
at a particular result or end. To arrive at or reach a particular
state or condition. To move or be brought to a particular position.
To extend; reach. To have priority; rank. To happen as a result.
To fall to one. To occur in the mind. To issue forth. To be
derived; originate. To be descended. To be within a given range or
spectrum of reference or application. To be a native or resident.
To add up to a certain amount. To become. To turn out to be. To be
available or obtainable. Vulgar Slang To experience orgasm.
Vulgar Slang also cum (km) Semen ejaculated during
orgasm.
come-it-ment = The action and/or
result of moving oneself while in separation and seeing what’s in
one’s world as separate, comparable, definable, and/or knowable.
cum-it-ment = The action and/or
result of having an orgasm while separate.
com-mi-men = abbr.
commercial organization. A prefix
meaning “with,”
“together,” “in association,”
and (with intensive force)
“completely,” occurring
in loanwords from Latin (commit): used
in the
formation of
compound words
before b, p, m: combine; compare;
commingle.
com-mi-men = abbr.
Bible Micah. abb. Michigan, military intelligence
(internal security), myocardial infarction (destruction of heart
tissue resulting from obstruction of the blood supply to the heart
muscle), mile. n. Music The third tone of the diatonic
scale in solfeggio. Music (in tonic sol-fa) the third degree
of any major scale; median.
com-me-men = the
nominative singular pronoun, used by a
speaker in referring to
himself or
herself. Used
to denote the narrator
of a literary work written in the first
person singular.
Metaphysics the
ego. The
personality of the speaker or writer or
something that expresses it.
com-me/mi-men = A combined and
organized force of egos that keep all quiet, secret, and internal to
maintain the median, middle-ground, and/or separation so that
ourselves obstruct the heart from
flowing/sounding/speaking/expressing openly.
kah-mit-ment = ka: noun
Egyptian Religion a spiritual
entity, an aspect of the individual, believed
to live within the body
during life
and to
survive it after
death.
In ancient
Egyptian religion, with the ba and the akh, a principal aspect of
the soul of a human
being or of a god. The exact
significance of the ka remains
a matter of controversy, chiefly for lack of an Egyptian
definition; the usual translation, "double," is incorrect.
Written by a hieroglyph of uplifted
arms, it seemed originally to have designated
the protecting divine spirit of a person. The ka survived the
death of
the body and could reside in a picture or statue of a person
Kah Tif - A offensive sentence used in
some Irish cities, its equal to f*ck off in English.
Khamit - Nubian Egypt was originally
known as Khamit and its people were known as the Khamau(Kah-mah-oo)
or Khamites. These ancient people lived in one of the most peaceful
civilizations in history guided by Seven of the Principles of Maat,
which focused on Truth, Righteousness, Law, Order, Balance, Harmony,
and Reciprocity. The goal of the Khamau was to live in a way knowing
that each day was Judgment Day and, guided by the laws of Maat. The
heart could be weighed on scales and be as light as a feather. They
did not separate themselves from The Creator whom they called Neter
in any of their actions.
FASCINATING….
calm-mit-ment = Not showing or
feeling nervousness, anger, or other emotions. The absence of
violent or confrontational activity within a place or group. The
absence of nervousness, agitation, or excitement in a person. Become
tranquil and quiet.
calm-mit-ment = The action
and result of silence within a mutual agreement to fulfill a task
and/or service.
Within the sounding of the word
Commitment, I see polarity here as well where togetherness,
agreements, service, sex/orgasm, communication, actions, positive
results, working, peacefulness, and tranquility/silence within is
positive and slavery, separation, neutrality, medians,
comparing, judging, neglect, failure, and non-completion are
negative.
I started this assignment two months
ago and I've been struggling to complete it. I've seen through this
process that I have chosen a word that I react to strongly in that I
want to run away from it. Also, I noticed when I was doing a vlog,
when I said the word 'commitment', I had to physically swallow the
word. LOL - and I'm seeing now that I'm annoyed at losing
two months of DIP to Commitment as this backchat, “WHY did I
choose THIS word? I hate this word. This word has totally tripped
me up. WHY didn't I (almost wrote eye) pick a different, more simple
word - I was already working on re-defining Leadership. Grr. I
just want to get this done.”
During this two months, I have also
recently realized the extent of which I have been in my mind as my
Ego and completely self-possessed. I haven't cared about anyone or
anything outside of myself and I'm now looking at some pretty messed up stuff as a consequence of this. So, it makes sense that I would
completely AVOID Commitment because the core meaning of this word to
me IS caring for others. Still, after self-forgiveness, when I place
the word Commitment before me, in me, as me, I immediately see a
picture of Mother Theresa cradling a child in her arms. Can I live
with this picture? Yes, as long as I release myself from judging
myself and comparing myself to Mother Theresa, the Pillar of
Goodness, that I have created within my mind.
Within my body, when I consider
Commitment, I become and express forcefulness, driven-ness, and
determination as focus, strength, with an unwillingness to 'go back'
on a commitment that I have made - it is myself saying, “I AM DOING
THIS.” This is something that I see as positive and easily
manipulated by myself as when I don't do what I have committed myself
to do, I become a failure. I am living Commitment as WINNING when I
am able to live up to my words which I then feel good and LOSING when
I do not live up to my words which I then emote badness as I have
failed, I am not going to make process, and I am unworthy and thus
this becomes my physical expression of Commitment.
“I forgive myself that I have not
accepted and allowed myself to realise that the definitions that I
have assigned to words are the expressions that I will give life to
as living expressions of myself.” - Earth's Journey To Life -Day 12
In the next blog, I will be sharing my Self-Forgiveness for the word Commitment.
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